Life it is... and all for you!!

Life is short...
So much to do...
you hate it the Most...
But nothing that you can really do....

There are ups and there are downs....
There are times when you just wanna frown...
Doesn't matter even if you have a crown...
Or you sitting in front of a Clown...

Its so Funny... but yet so sad...
It can be good to you...
But in a moment...
It can go Bad...

So many hassles...
So much pain...
and when you are well dressed...
It always does rain...

Funny it is....
But yet true....
Thats Life my Friend...
And its all for you...

Satanic Pleasure.... Life gets.... In my Misery

Why does it always have to be this way.... Why cant I live Happily??? whenever I do something that pleases me.... Others are always disappointed... Sad but True... What Curse have I taken birth with... Something that makes me smile... makes others frown... Which in turn makes me Sad... makes me low... But if I fake a Smile... curbing my inner feelings... That makes other around Happy... This feels good from inside that I have been able to make someone Happy... But deep inside I know what it is like.... It feels like fish taken out of water... But in the end... the distress of the Fish makes someone smile... it feed the hungry stomach of what we call Human!!!
The Fish is still fortunate... It has to face the Pain only once in its lifetime... after which it no longer lives... Its free from all the Pain and the troubles.... But what about me??? I cant even end my life... Its not that I am too scared... but just the fact, it would go wasted.... wont be able to feed anyone's Hunger... Nor will it make any one happy....

Destiny has been written for me... It says that at every step you have to face troubles... I would be fine with that tooo... But again conditions Apply!!!! The ray of hope for happiness is always shown to me... The sweetness is tasted... but before I relish it... Its gone!!! Life teases me at every juncture... at every turn... at every point.... It gets some kind of Satanic Pleasure.... doesn't keep me in distress all the time.... gives me the false taste of hope and then gives a hard blow.... Maybe its my Karma in the past... or maybe the deeds of my present.... Deeds of my present... what Sin did I commit??? I just know of one... I tried to be Happy.... What a gruesome sin...

But thats the story of my life.... and I have no Option... But to accept it the way it is... Simple but too complex.... But Still I have a Hope... A False Hope.... the very reason of my Sanity.....

Nothing... The only thing...

Those Eyes looked at me... with so much hope... so much love.... so much to tell me.... So much sorrow... so much pain... so much happiness....
But there I was .... all I could do is... Nothing.... I wanted to say so many things ... but was just afraid.... Afraid of what I do not know... and do not understand...
The presence lasted for just few moments.. in which the entire life had to be lived.... Time just passed by so quickly.... How I wish I could stop time... or maybe travel back in time... But I am just human... too weak....
I don't know what I am doing....But am still doing it.... What I am doing.. is it right??? And even if its right... do I think really believe that its the right thing to do???
Those Eyes are haunting me... I just cant take them out of my mind... I saw the hunger... the desperation... The Fear of Separation.... There was so much that I wanted to do... but failed... I was the one who could make everything change... In fact the only one... But still I layed there so powerless... so feeble.... so weak!
What does Life have in store for me??? Why is it playing such a game??? I am going through hell... but its the smile that you will always find... What an Irony... More the pain... broader is the smile.... Tears are just so hard to find....
Why does it have to be this way... Why does it have to be so painful... Being in control of everything.... Still I am in no Control what so ever... Why cant people understand me??? Why don't they realize what I am going through???
Sacrifice thats whats been the outstanding quality of the Indian culture!!! Yes thats where the problem is... SACRIFICE.... what a small word... and used with so much pride... we have been taught from centuries.... to sacrifice.... sacrifice your love... your feeling... your life... That will make you a good human!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA..... killing ones emotions makes one a good human.... But what about the torture that we deliver upon ourselves... does that not count count.... We are hurting some one... aren't we??? But that someone is no one else... its your own self!!! But hey thats how it goes... cause thats what we are taught.... and all we do is follow it... without questioning it.....
Its a sad situation.... in this sacrifice... what have I gained??? Nothing...
What has those innocent eyes gained??? Nothing....
And what is the purpose of my Life now??? Nothing....
And what is the purpose of the innocent eyes now??? Nothing....

Yeah the Emptiness... and thats what it is.... NOTHING!!!.... The Only thing....

The Desert.. The Desert of Joy!!

Was it the truth
or was it a Dream
I was in love...
like in the sweet sixteen

It was a Desert
A desert of Joy..
Filled with the thirst for love...
The feeling that no one could destroy...

It seemed like an Oasis...
Quenching my thirst...
But it was a mirage...
which I couldn't figure out first...

I walked through the desert..
And realized the absence of water...
And all I was drinking
was the dust from every quarter....

Oh what a pity...
I felt so lame..
felt like a loser...
Losing all my fame...

It was very painful...
But still I want more...
Cuz its the Desert the desert of Joy..
That I truly adore....

The Illusion called HAPPINESS!!!

Happiness!! What is happiness?? I don't know what exactly it means?
What makes me happy... ?? And does my happiness make other's happy??
Or to make other's Happy I forget things that make me Happy.... Seeing other's Happiness makes me happy... Or its Just that I don't know what exactly is Happiness.... I think I know... Its an Illusion.... You think that you are Happy... In fact trying to make other's Happy... thinking that you will be Happy! But thats not what happens.... I have tried to make so many people Happy, forgetting about my Happiness.... But it turns out that they never get Happy..... And if I do things that make me Happy..... Others are still not Happy.... What an Irony!
Is there something wrong with me... or is it the entire World thats wrong??? Or is it that I am a curse.... No one around me ever is Happy??? Or is it the Entire World that is a Curse.... which is Never Happy??? Or am I one of them?? Cursed with Sadness... and spreading it like a plague....
What is Happiness???.... Is it something that makes me smile??.... something that makes me laugh....??? But I have heard that when you are extremely Happy.. you CRY!!!.... I have been crying all my life.... Am I crying cause I am SAD inside.... or Is it cause I am too Happy ???
The Illusion of happiness has always haunted me like a mirage in a desert... Always teasing me... seducing me toward itself.... The more I try to go towards it... Away it goes.... I wonder why I am still chasing it?? Its like Addiction.... or Marijuana.... you know it's killing you but still you cant stay without it.... You don't want to come out of the Illusion thats created... The Illusion of Happiness.....

You are besides me....

I open my eyes...
and find that you are so far....
I close my eyes....
and reach where you are....

Is this a dream...
Or is this True...
This truth is always understood...
by a very Few....

I have suffered all my Life...
Undergone a lot of pain...
But now that I have you...
Happiness is what I will Gain...

Now what the World says...
I really dont Care...
Cause you are besides me...
Don't need to go Elsewhere!!!

Its all about the Money Honey

Sometimes I just wonder... What do I really want? Do I really need money? or do I need peace of Mind? But if there is no money... I cant buy anything... But again its said that money can buy you a bed but cant buy sleep... But can you sleep when you have an empty stomach?

Money is the root of all Evil.. but I beg to differ... Money is a necessary Evil... You have money people bow to you... no matter how much ever they hate you! If you have money people will start loving you too...
"Wow he is so rich & yet down to earth... and he loves you so much... I think he is best you can get... He is doing so much for you... he buys you such expensive gifts.... etc etc etc..."
What the F***??? Nowadays your love will be respected and appreciated only if have the M power.... If you love someone.... you have to buy expensive gifts.... Hahaha... Who says money cant buy Love?????

If you want to get Married... You need a bank balance.... Isn't that a pity.... Marriage is just a business deal.... and nothing else.... Gone are the days... when the person mattered .. Now Money matters.... "Paisa fek tamasha dekh! "

I feel so Angry... But the anger will have no effect... Why??? Cause for that also you need Money!! What the F***... For acknowledgment of your expression also you need money!!!!
What has the world become??? A place where everything sells.... Survival of the Fittest... errrrrrrr... Richest!!!

Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money Money ..... Thats what is needed Honey!